Broken bones and sickness...

SURGERY

My stepson broke his collarbone in gym class a couple of weeks ago - well he needs surgery. I was hoping his collarbone would heal nicely on its own but he needs to have a plate put in to help it heal. He is dealing with it really well, from what I have seen. His surgery is on Tuesday and he will probably have to stay overnight at the hospital. He may need another surgery down the road to have the plate taken out. I hate it when loved ones have to go for surgery - it scares me. 

SICKNESS GO AWAY!!

So I am up pretty late for a school night. I should either be in bed or studying - I have two tests tomorrow, another test Wednesday, and the rought draft of a project due Wednesday. Well I have been having trouble studying today because I feel awful (I got quite a bit down yesterday though). I may not go to school tomorrow. I feel that bad. I can't sleep - I can't lay down because everytime I do, no matter which way I lay, I cannot breathe. It feels like there is a weight in my chest, heck, my upper back even hurts because of it. Even sitting up, breathing is difficult although I feel a tiny bit better this moment. I also have the most atrocious cough. I have been coughing so hard that I almost pee'd my pants and I have a headache. Shite, I coughed so hard I almost threw up. Earlier I had a fever of 101. I am scared tonight - I have toyed with the idea of going to the hospital but I don't know if I would even see a Dr by morning and who needs a ER bill? I am getting oxygen - I am not turning blue or anything, so I hope to be all right and head on out to the Dr tomorrow ASAP.

This just pisses me off though. I am sick of being sick. I was sick a couple of weeks ago with the same type thing - a head cold that went into my chest - it just wasn't that bad then. I thought I was over it but now the damn thing is back this week. I had to call off from work 3 times this week, which annoys me and I know it really annoys my managers.  It is only a McDonalds job but, still, I hate to call off. At the same time I cannot, in good conscience, wait on people when I am this sick. "Would you like (cough, cough, hack, hack, gag, gag)  fries with (snorting up phlegm or snot)  that?" Don't you just love it when your service people are hacking, sniffling, and wheezing all over your food?

At least one off my teachers is understanding. I emailed all my professors tonight, telling them I may not be in class tomorrow. My prof from the literary analysis emailed me back already. This is what she said:

"I just read such a good paper of yours, that you have earned yourself an extension until Wednesday on the bib and poetry revision.  Get well.  Nice job on the drama paper.

-vickie"

What a doll. I am so glad she let me know about my paper too. That is the play analysis I was beating my head against the wall over last week. The formalist paper I had to do about August Wilson's "Fences". WAHOOO, that is one piece of good news I needed. I really busted my ass on that but I still wasn't sure about it.

I think that is part of the reason why I am sick. That damn analysis! No, not really but I think I have been trying to do too much. I already have problems with energy and getting enough sleep because of my Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, then add to it being ill all summer long (that is a story no one really wants to know about), then trying to work part-time and go to school full-time (16 credits worth) ...well my system is just kicking back at me. I just don't know what to do. I just have to make through this semester in one piece.

Yeah, my fever is still up there - 100.8