Love Is Blind

Love is Blind

OMG! Once upon a time I had a best friend named Johnny/Juan. I wrote about him yesterday in my Paczki blog. Well I fell in love with Juan in Jr High. I kept that a secret from him throughout high school until about 11th grade. I was afraid to ruin our friendship. He and I started going in different directions about 9th grade anyway. He found out I was in love with him but he did not return the feelings. Our friendship did suffer because he wanted to be part of the 'IN' crowd and I hung out more with the interesting crowd (Drama people). Even though Juan did not return my feelings and I was hurt, I still held on to those feelings for him. We had a lot of history together. All this love I had for him did not die. I waited for him for many years. It was not meant to be. Eventually I came to terms with that. I thought it was just that I was more like a sister to him, and wasn't his type. I thought he went more for the helpless blond chicks. Well I was right and wrong. I was not his type. Yesterday, I found out Juan is .... GAY! AAAAAHHHHHHHHH.  hahahhahahaha.  I could not believe it. I found yet another website like myspace and I looked up Juan. I always wonder how he is. I do miss him, although I don't have the same feelings for him that I used to. I don't even know him anymore but I consider him and his family part of my family (his Mom and brother came to my wedding). Well I looked him up - he is living in DC with his husband! My friends used to wonder if he was gay, but I never thought so - and I thought I had awesome 'gaydar'. Love is blind. hehee Now I can compete with my husband in regards to stupid relationship choices. He sometimes beats himself up over a mistake he made. Well he didn't waste 10 + years of his life mooning over someone who was not or would never be interested in him. This is all very funny. It is crazy that I never knew. I am kind of glad I did not find out about this 10 years ago though, before I met my dear hubby. I might have been devastated. Now I can just laugh and shake my head.